Franny and Zooey - Sallinger

" I'm not afraid to compete. It's just the opposite. Don't you see that? I'm afraid I will compete- that's what scares me. That's why I quit the theatre Department. Just because I'm so horribly conditioned to accept everybody else's values, and just because I like applause and people to rave about me, doesn't make it right. I'm sick of not having the courage to be an absolute nobody. I'm sick of myself and everybody else that wants to make some kind of a splash. "

- I'm pretty sure I have the courage to be a nobody, or maybe just the resignation. Or maybe I don't really believe that I am. I honestly don't know. -jc

Red 9-1 For Jeremy

The stock of an anchor travels the

Sea

tied

with it's ship

not to

tied like so much rope

Never

there is no there

a mirage

a slower

dehydration

Always

at home

sinking into

Ever- changing

Sands.

7-30-09

The funniest thing that happened today- a guy was walking all hip hop cool with a total chilled out swagger when, oops! Drops his milkshake! He almost walked away from it but seeing me point and laugh decided to swagger on back and pick it up- but he didn't lose one iota of what he thought of as smoothness while doing so. He didn't say one word either, I woulda been all, " Fuck me! My mutha Fuckin McShake! Now how'm I gonna bring the boys to the yard? FUCK !"

I also discovered a new name for a ballbag while laying out by the pool with Brian- I opened my eyes to find him sitting up next to me and down this scary tunnel of swim trunks was an elephant knee just waiting to be named.

Oh and on the side of the Strip Clup " The Body Shop" which famously appears in The Crue's song " Girls Girls Girls" ( Mrs Garrett is in no way involved with or affiliated with Montley Crue) it says " Nudie Cuties" I was sold but Brian missed the turn.

Songs for the Day- Grizzly Bear- the Knife and En Vogue- Never gonna Get it